|SMILE be your own best friend|
Behind the Paper Smile
Lips stutter into a curve.
Pegged at the corners,
This brittle smile
Sticks to my teeth,
And clutches at my heart.
NO LIFE HERE THEN?
Just pure resignation.
Gillian Holland copyright 2014
Today I want to continue my exploration of Smiling. I am really snowed under at the moment. So I greeted the beautiful crisp winter's morning with a snarl rather than I smile. Turning the TV on, I then became fascinated by the guy being interviewed. As he spoke, his face hardly moved a muscle. His lips snapped back and forth with mechanical precision. Not much life there either?
Well at least I wasn't the only one struggling!!! So entranced was I that I then I decided to practise my own smile. Fortunately, hubby was sitting in the other room at the time. The result was the piece, Paper Smile, above. Not a happy smile!
My paper smile had no energy behind it, and certainly no joy. Just an obligation to get myself out there, whilst hiding my true feelings, in deep denial, 'behind the paper smile.'
The 'Pause and Smile' smile comes from a different space altogether. For one thing, you are saying 'Yes to Life' and you don't have to pretend to like it. Rather than denying your feelings, acknowledge them from the 'bottom of your heart'. Have some compassion for yourself. Give yourself permission to be you. Although you may still have a huge to do list, your attitude will have shifted altogether.
So today if I catch myself hiding behind the paper smile once again. I am going to stop, smile and give myself permission to be ME!